Hi my beloved reader...

Chapter 4 has arrived! ^_^

 

Title: In Air

Length: one-shot

Author: Li Youhan (Razra_Eizel)

Rating: NC-17

Genre: humor, romance, smut

Pairing: Yunjae

Summary: while in an airplane, and bored

Disclaimer: I don’t own anything

 

A/N: written for villa_gazerock’s plot bunny, which is “Yunjae airplane smut” :DDDD enjoy~

 

This is written in a way similar to Trapped :DDD

 

By the way, Yunjae Last Fanfic Writer Standing voting will start soon :DD please read and vote~ thank you~

 

 

Trip to Somewhere

My mum wants to get a DS Lite to play brain training games. :D I'm seeing some possibilities here. mwahahaha. Anyway, I'm gonna be searching ebay for a decent deal so I can buy it for her. :D

Meanwhile, I'm still glued to Crisis Core. It's really rather upsetting, knowing in the back of my mind what's going to happen at the end of the game. >_<


... writing from the point of view of a dog is very difficult. ^^; I wonder how dogs actually do think. (Damnit, why couldn't the boys own cats? I could do cats...)

BTW, after researching for the fic, and finding out about the boys dogs... what on earth happened to those two little white fluffy dogs that Jae and Chun bought together last year? Yoochun's was Choylah or something similar, and Jae's was something starting with S. >_< They certainly weren't Vick and Harang however.

( random video of Min being in the middle of the YunJae. XD )

SEE IT YOURSELF...

THEIR LATEST MOMENT!

This was taken after one of their promotions if I'm not mistaken...
correct me please if I'm wrong...

I do lack details when it comes to these kind of things...

anyway... on to the love now!!!

Title: In 30 Days
Author: XinYue [ME!]
Length: Chaptered
Pairing: Jaeho [Main]
Genre: Crack. Angst, Tragedy, and a mix of "Pysho-nism"
Rating: PG? [might go up later]
Short Summary: Give Jung Yunho 30 days to turn a bad ass Kim Jaejoong
into a gentlemen, all the while, trying not to fall for him.
Warning: Un-beta

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Title: Heartstrings
Chapter: 19/?
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: MinSu, JaeChun, JaeHo, YooMin, JaeMin
Genres: AU, General, Romance
Disclaimer: No disrespect intended when writing this fiction. I do not own the boys - they belong to SME. I only own the plot and fic banners.
Summary: A lot of love stories start with a tug at the heartstrings: Your heart beats faster when you're near him, you fall in love with him without knowing, you think that you can be with him forever - that is, until the consequences come flooding into your heart.
Author's Note: Unrevised again. Ignore the ugly banner. I don't have enough time to make a nicer one. About the story itself, um... *hides* Comment pls? :3♥

( And I hope that Changmin is still alive. )

*x-posted.

Okayyy so today was okay.
The fireworks were pretty and they were all sparkly and they looked like glitter in the sky 8DD IT WAS SO NICEEE. It was really really really hot though, and my new cute cute shoes got all dirty from the log ride so gjsghjdsjg D: I spent like an hour trying to clean them and they're still realyl gross and dirty but THE SHOES WERE SO NIIIIIIICE D: I shoudlve gotten a picture of them when we were in Vancouver. Ughh, idk if i should wear them tomorrow if me and Manda are going to taste of Edmonton. THEY USED TO BE SO PRETTY and now its like ewwwwwww. Im so glad i didnt wear my new white ones, i would've freaked out so much if i wore those. Ughhhh SO fricking tiiiiiiiired.

LOLLL OH MY GOD, okay earlier I saw this game thing and the name of it was like SKEEBALLS and I LOLOLOLOLED SO HARD HAHAHAHA coz I was like LULZ HEY THAT REMINDS ME OF SARAH! AND LOLOLO BALLS LOLOLOL LMFAOOo. LOLOLOL BALLS. AAHHAHAA. LMFAO OH MY GOD. <3333333333  And later I saw this girl, i think it was the eyes but SHE LOOKED JUST LIKE ELYEHSUNGIE. NOT EVEN KIDDING OMG, but she had really long hair but if she had short hair i wouldve probably attacked her and been all OMFG ELYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy and LOL 8D
And Tracy's friends were okay but ehh, I just really want to go home. Whenever we're here I THINK OF HIM coz he freaking liiiives here and when we were on the ferris wheel(LOL THAT TRACY WAS SCARED OF HAHAHA) I kept daydreaming and crap, Edmonton makes me all ghsjhgjdghhg and nostalgic and emo coz 3.8/4ths of my relatives i dont really KNOW them or whatever, its kind of like when im at work im all OH SHIT I GOTTA BE PROFESSIONAL AND UPTIGHT AND POLITE OR I'LL GET IN CRAP kind of thing, so I dont really idk talk, unless theres a cousin that im comfortable around or someone i know at work(well i mean now i do, but like with allison and morgan and sometimes kayla im kind of like =x) and school's fun because LOL I dont care, ahaha, its like LULZZZ *does stupid crap* but thats unless im not doing school work because i can never ever get stuff done at home.

I want a boyfrienddd. Actually, no coz I hate stupid guys and i dont really want to even hang out with matt anymore at all because well just GSJSKS my sister, is fucking annoying. She was saying how i'm going to be one of her bridesmaids and that shes going to be mine(LOL) and i didnt really say anything but its like uhhhh, no. LOL. Shes the only reason why me and matt arent good friends anymore and why i'm all like a bitch to him and sometimes im like ohhhhhhhh i like him~~ but LOl she kind of just kills it. And my ex, i dont have to explain that, really. I kind of want a boyfriend though so we can be all cute and romantical(LOL<3) and hold hands everywhere and stuff and pick me up and carry me off the stage on grad dayy and stuff but at the same time i dont want one because if i really want to do singing It'll just make me kind of like ehhh do i really want to do this? Even more than I normally am and like when i started going out with WHATSHISFACE i totally gave up on trying and was like ohh i'll never get better at this honestly, and i totally forgot about it and all i knew was that i'd go and live in edmonton and just do something there. LOL. Vancouver though is liek almost perfect, I'd move to Vancouver for a while and later if i ever made it in or if i just wanted to go on vacation to Korea I could go there and  it wouldnt be way too far away or anything. And yeah, a guy might or could almost ruin it, like I mean I know I WANT TO but im really stupid for a guy I like, ahaha. I used to be all *opstimistic* ILL FIND A SUPER HOT GUY ONE DAYYYY! 8D and now its kind of like ohh pretty boys~ but, yeah... D:

I'm bored, and tired.

LOVIN’ YOU - CHAPTER 16
Title: Lovin’ You
Author: despair26 @ livejournal.com (wordsofdespair)
Rating: R (Language, Angst, Abuse, Smut)
Pairings: YunJae, JaeMin , YooSu
Summary: Jae Joong is not sure whether he wants out of his abusive relationship with Yun Ho or not. When they move to a new city to start University together Jae Joong makes new friends much to the disapproval of Yun Ho. Will Yun Ho ever understand his lover or will Jae Joong find love somewhere else?
Disclaimer: Don't own them and I how they are portrayed in the fic is not what they are like in real life. I hope.
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Chapter 16
I had to spend the time I had with him well. We had to move on, we had to forget. What happened would always be there in the back of my mind and I knew it would only be a matter of time before I felt the repercussions of my own actions and the actions of those around me.

I'm looking at my calendar now. In not less than a months time my exams will start and I'll be by no means sane enough to think straight. The pressure is already growing. I was this close to cut myself just to let the pain trash over my thoughts. My mind isn't in it's best state now.

I don't want to study. The very idea of doing it almost brought me to tears last night. It's just sinking in so bad that I know I'll flop my exams and my mum is going to make sure I'll regret each day from then. Then I began to recall things in my daily life which I know I shouldn't. I got wistful. I got envious. I got very very jealous. I totally saw green and I feel sick being myself. I really wanted to get rid of myself if it was possible.

Those thoughts were just disgusting. I'm disgusted by myself. I know I shouldn't be thinking of such things but I did. The thrill to actually do it was so tempting. I locked myself all up after that. Ignoring my parents when they called me for dinner. Ignored my brother when he said that there were fruits left for me if I didn't want dinner.

I really don't know what's wrong with me now. I don't want to talk to anyone about this. It won't work. It really won't. I don't give a shit if someone told me to, it just won't work. Even if someone told me that they understood. Pfeh. What lies.

They don't. All those around me, they live simple lives. The think in a simple manner. I'm sure they don't think like me. They don't. Even the things they talk about just doesn't seem to be what I'll be talking about. I want to avoid church but I'm already being hold down by my past decisions. Can I let it go? Can I bare to go and carry those circumstances that'll come my way after that?

Sometimes I wish I wasn't born in a christian family. The things I know of my faith really makes me feel more shitty than dirt. I don't know whether it's my faith anymore. I just don't want to believe in things. I can't even believe in myself. What's there to hold on to?

Even if I lose my friends. Things won't change. Even if I lose my family. Things won't change. Even if the whole world goes against each other. Things won't change. Everything is moving. It still goes on to tomorrow, the day after that, the week after that, the months, years.

If someone asked me "Are you happy?" I know I won't be able to tell them the truth. Because I don't know where I find my happiness anymore. If someone asked me "What do you like most?" I know I can't answer art. I can't. It's just contradicting that I can't find a simple solution to answer simple questions in life.

I thought I knew what I wanted. Who I am. Where things will go. I don't.

Then one day this question came and now I'm totally in my pit of guilt. "If you love something more than God, doesn't that make you unholy? Doesn't that mean that you can't put God first before anything else? Doesn't that mean if you do put God first you'll have to let go what you love most?"

There's so many things I hold dear and love in my life. One of it is arts. Then someone just had to ask that fucking question and now I'm at a crossroad. I know I love it more than God. Like fuck I do.

And it just fucking hurts so much that if I had to let go of it and put God first, I'm already blank the minute I thought of it. Sure there are alternatives which I can choose if I do let go of arts. But I don't fucking like those alternatives! I don't! those alternatives are just blank alright. I don't see anything from it. Gosh my head is spinning already.

I grew up with my mind full of colours, designs and creative thoughts. Now someone throws this at me and tells me that if I'm to hold on to that. Won't I be some hypocrite saying that others should also know God when I don't even put him first.

I don't know God. I know nothing of him. I don't know him. I can read the bible and tell people the wonders of him but I don't know him. To know him I need to drop everything. Everything. And that means art. I.. I just can't fucking do it. It's already killing me to think of it. To give it all up and just let him decide for me. What happens if he does decide that I should do something else? That something else which I don't want to? Which I would never think about? Which I know it won't par up to my love for arts?

This is so fucking corny. It's like Abraham's story being rerun and I can't fucking put myself in his place seriously. At least he knew God.

Gosh I'm so screwed.

I don't want to give up arts. I don't want to. But if it means putting it first before God... It's like I'm telling God. "Dude I reject you and you're better off being second." He doesn't do fucking seconds!

What am I going to do. My head is really spinning and my throat hurts. It's so tight and I can't even breath properly.

I don't want to go to hell damn it. I hate my mother so much now. If she didn't show me those videos. Those books. Testimonies. She doesn't help by reminding me each day that if I touch the computer I'm sinning and sin means that I'm being unholy and being unholy means that I'll be further from God.

Oh gosh. I really want to disappear right now and just cease to exist. Since when did being a christian became so damn fucking complicated?

If I do that. I'm sinning. If I don't do that I'm okay. If I touch this I'm asking for trouble. If I don't touch that I'm safe. If I go online, I'm stealing time away from God. If I don't go online I'm alright.

I should just live in a cave or something and be away from everything since almost everything is sin!

Drinking water is sinning too. I mean we're cheating each other aren't we? Since water was free in the beginning before humans started to use money to confine it and we're cheated all out lives over something which was free to start with.

But no. That's no sinning. Since God gave us water and we can use it as we please since it's 'given'. Right. Then why do we have to pay for it if it was 'given' and 'free' why can't we just share it without paying a price?

But everything has a price doesn't it?

Aish... I hate my head. I hate myself. I don't even know why I'm living for anymore.

Where do I stand in all of this?

Title: inertia
Length oneshot
Rating: PG
Warnings: None.
Genre: Romance
A/N: For simply_strange, who I think should start fanfiction as well. >.>; xD Concrit/comments are welcome.
Summary: Jaejoong eyes are a little too bright, his cheeks a little too flushed - Yunho hasn't seen this Jaejoong for a long time, not since the days before their debut. (A year ago, ten years, a century, the beginning of their forever.)

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And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
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Jaejoong eyes are a little too bright, his cheeks a little too flushed - Yunho hasn't seen this Jaejoong for a long time, not since the days before their debut. (A year ago, ten years, a century, the beginning of their forever.)

I just downloaded Bottle It Up by Sara Bareilles. I like the uplifting mood and the lyrics. I like her voice and they way she sang this song too, really happy with a bit of quirkyness ^_^!

Embedding is disabled but here's what it sounds like: http://youtube.com/watch?v=O8CyJVTCFYs

If you like, you can download: http://www.mediafire.com/?jzgmzmntnlxm

Title: Blackout
Author: Kioku
Rating: PG+ NC-17 (only Yoosu part.)
Length: Oneshot
Summary: During a blackout, the Dong Bang boys experience interesting things.

(“Hey! Where's Yunho?” Jaejoong asked as he entered the living room.)

Ahora, mientras vagaba en internet se me antojo ir a la pagina de Fanatico  y ver si no tenia alguna pelicula nueva que quisiera bajar, digo... ya que no hay cine aqui lol.

Pues me encontre con la pelicula de Speed Racer [Meteoro] y a pesar de que nunca me gusto la serie la baje. Obviamente solo para ver a Rain en ella xD
Para mi sorpresa la pelicula me gusto y me entro curiosidad por ver la serie [No completa claro o_o] lastima que no la encontre en japones :(

lo que si encotre fue un clip que hizo que riera bastante, es una escena del anime donde Speed le pregunta a Racer X si el es su hermano.

"There is no harm in asking"  xD diganle eso a Speed...


Por otro lado... Omg, ¿estoy enferma, o soy la unica que ve el yaoi de Iljimae? *-*
Quiero fanfics de Iljimaaeee~

so... there was an orientation today at my community college... 5 hours of pure boredom. I was surprised to hardly see any students from my high school.. (or they probably skipped orientation which is the smart thing to do)

there was a weird guy there who kept trying to talk everyone..
he kept staring at me at one point... I know I'm ugly but why keep staring at me?! TT ____TT

And there was a baby running around the classroom.. it was so cute DDD8 (no I'm not a pedo)
but the weird guy scared the poor thing ;__;

but anyways..

SHINee sings TVXQ's Miduhyo

Is it bad that I thought only jonghyun sang well in this? I cringed at the chorus o_x *gets bricked*

and thank goodness for J-rock concerts in summer.
At least I can have some fun before classes start >___<

daizystripper ftw!!

title: Super Hero
length: One-shot.
author: sardoodle
rating: G/BL
pairing: Yunho-centric (mention of Yunho/Jaejoong)
summary: He was, is and will always be DBSK's saving grace.
disclaimer: Too many run-on sentences. I need to cut my English well.

...he stops for a second to think that he can't be going crazy now. The band is busy conquering Asia and he's the leader so he needs to keep the band together.

Hmm...I don't know what to think of this season's designers yet since it's only week two, the first challenge with the super market, most were really ugly but for this week's challenge, the Green challenge, most weren't bad. The point is to use green fabrics, not actually referring to the color but to the actual fabric, these are organic materials that are environmentally friendly and they will be designing a cocktail dress according to the wants of their clients (the models) and the twist is that the models will be the ones who chooses the materials for their dress. Guest judge: Natalie Portman.

Stella was so annoying this challenge, she is the obligatory punk/urban designer and she is so snobby and pretentious. She totally disregarded her client's likes and just did something SHE liked. And then she complained at how there's no leather challenge! Like wtf, if you're a good designer you can design anything.

On to the runway!

( My unasked for opinion )